One down, lots more to go.

Since Jared left I have been keeping myself very busy. Having people over, volunteering, playing Bunco, hanging out with Lisa and the gang, checking books out at the library, grocery shopping... my week has been a blur. My schedule doesn't let up this coming week either! I haven't really given myself time to decompress and accept the situation, I haven't given myself me time yet. I think I really need to do that though, maybe after the chores I need to complete tomorrow.


This was the day Jared left. As you can see, that is a fake smile. It was probably the worst day emotionally I have ever had. My best friend is leaving and I have to just let him go. Duty Calls.










Lisa and the gang invited me to picnic with them at Bowman Bay (well, actually I told Lisa I was coming along and she didn't say no). I decided I would show Jared that I loved him using nature. I am really getting into this "in touch with the environment" thing. Granola perhaps? No.










At least he has a grin on his face.

...Day One...

Jared left yesterday afternoon and will be traveling for 24 hours straight. It was a rough day, to say the least, but I got through it with support (and hugs) from other wives. This is the first time in 5 years that we will be apart from one another for more than a few weeks. I have learned how to pay the bills online, keep the motorcycle in working order, mow the lawn, and anything else Jared felt was necessary for me to know. Jared and I had been going practically nonstop for a week straight with packing, parties, and Jared working. It just didn't seem real that he was leaving - I didn't want to believe it. Standing in line to check his bags it all started to sink in and it hit me very hard. I listened to the plane take off from the comfort of Jared's sweats while snuggled up in bed, I couldn't stand there and watch it take off from the terminal. I know that this is going to be tough, not only for me, but for Jared as well. We are going to get through this and it will make us that much stronger.

Today wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I actually got out of bed :) and did something - thanks to Heather. We did a little shopping around town (not retail therapy, we had a purpose!) and ate lunch together. It was very nice to be around someone else and to share thoughts/feelings with someone who is going through it all too. I had a slight setback when I looked for something to eat for breakfast this morning and realized we only had food Jared would eat... and he isn't here to do that. I am working on being stronger and not so emotional, I think I can do this by having a plan for each day. Tomorrow it is the gym and the library...so far, so good.