Thanksgiving Thankfuls

As I read other blogs about Thanksgiving and all that everyone is thankful for, I try to search in my own life what I am thankful for. These past few months have been very trying for me (and Jared, but I don't want to speak for him) and it has been hard to see the rays of sunshine, let alone be thankful for anything. I know these thoughts and feelings shall pass, but I don't know when. Everywhere around me I see reminders of what could have been and I think even more so that life just isn't fair. I know these things take time, time is just moving by so slowly. I try to just get through each day thinking that each day will get better, trying to enjoy the happy times, and the times that make me laugh or smile. I try to feel better every day and try to be thankful for at least something. Because this is the time for Thanksgiving, or we just passed Thanksgiving and it is a time to be thankful for all that has been good in your life, here are the only things I could think of:

First and foremost, my Jared. How strong and brave he is to keep me standing when my whole world is wobbly. Second, my family (both J's family and my family family). Knowing they are there if we need them at the drop of a hat. Friends. Without friends to think good thoughts and lend a tissue, I would be standing in a puddle. Nowadays when people ask "how are you?" my response is, "I'm alive." So I am thankful I am alive.

I do hope that everyone has had a wonderful Thanksgiving and that you have found more things to be thankful for in your lives. Keep sending those happy thoughts and know that I miss the company of each and every one of you... like old times in P'cola.

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